It's a life which have no U turns

Today, I did the unthinkable which I never thought I would. It's so difficult, so awkward at times. But, anyway, what happened is being done, there is no turn back button or any U turns, but I trust what I'm doing is right.

I'm still thinking of my lifetime plan which all the while I wish to, leave everything here, bring the heart to somewhere else and never ever come back again. But there is a force & a voice who told me "You can't go, you can't just go as like this without properly everything in place."

It keep waking me up every night for the past nearly 3 months, who this voice belongs to? Who are you actually? Why I shouldn't go? I keep asking myself as I'm awake, why are you keep talking to me? Are there anything that I should really do?

This world never being a fair & just place, anywhere, everywhere, everyone...